Yeah, so although I realise that as late I have turned this into a politicial rant and also a place to post various useful petitions for my activist friends as we try and build something real hear in Moorestown other than a GSA that just yells at people for being fags, today I need to use this page as a venting mechanism before I pop.  I would just talk to someone I trusted, but I have work at three and I have to be in a good mood for that so for the moment I have decided to just write about it.  I am just in a really bad fucking mood because there are so many idiots in this school.  I don't mean to say I hate my school, as obviously there are a ton of awesome people that I wouldn't have met without it and I love seeing them every day, but so many people are just stupid dipshits.  I don't understand why some people don't have the capacity to calm the fuck down and stop a joke before it gets offensive.  I like Addie a lot, and I would really like to be nice to her, but at the same time she is just pissing me off today.  She is "practicing being mean" and thinks it is really funny so she just treats me like shit and laughs about it.  She also has a running theory that I like Hank, which drive me insane because for whatever reason those are the things that A make me really uncomfortable around people and B makes it hard for me to trust poeple.  I mean luckily I didn't even trust her in the first place being that she is a chick and everything and I have my inherant inability to be vulnerable around women, but at the same time I think it is absolutely rediculous for her to act the way she is to me, its hurtful nonetheless.  Especially the Hank thing, that is reminicent of the days when every guy I was friends with became convinced that I had a crush on them because I was nice to them right after I came out.  I really thought I could expect more from Addie.  I thought I could expect more from her being that she thinks she is all into gay rights and gay equality and everything, but apparently she has the same built in prejudices as everyone else.  That is one of the main things that makes me sick about almost all of the GSA.  Almost all of the GSA kids are people with just as many steriotypes and prejudices as everyone else in the world.  The GSA kids are like christians.  They just run around and think they are better than everyone else.  I'm gay, I know what it is like to face discrimination, it isn't like it is a cause I am apathetic to.  I just really hate the fact that most of these people just criticize others and carry the same steriotypes as everyone else.  It is so hard when someone I actually like and am trying to be friends with just winds up being a total ass to me.  I don't know what the point of this is.  I am going to leave class early to go find someone who actually gives a damn about me.  Then I have to go to work and get in trouble for breaking a window last time I was there (it had a hairline crack and i hit it, causing the whole thing to shatter) and I am just not looking foward to this fucking day.  Life sucks sometimes.  I don't know what else to say.  Later all!

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